I have been a Christian all my life. It's something that is apart of me literally; my name means "Believer in Christ". As a young girl, I would never hesitate to talk about Jesus.....so what happened? The boldness I had when I was younger has been replaced with a need to be accepted.
In all honesty I have allowed myself to be a victim of insecurity. You see I care what people think of me, I always have. I don't want to offend, upset or make anyone feel uncomfortable. I'm not sure if you have ever read about Jesus or his time on earth, but let's just say he was the complete opposite, a perfect mix of rebel and redeemer. He healed and loved people, but he challenged and angered them too.
I think a big part of my hesitation is the fear that if I were to speak boldly about Christ, I would instantly be thought of as "closed minded" and nothing I said or did would be taken seriously. Christian's have gotten a bad reputation (in some cases rightly so) for some pretty hateful things done "In the name of Jesus" over the years.
But staying in the closet isn't going to change that negative perception. Only living a life as instructed by God's word, a life of love, kindness and humility, will ever be able to change what people may think about Christians.
So I think it's time for me to come out of the closet. I will make mistakes, but luckily God can even use mistakes to show His mercy and forgiveness.